“You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is too high, I can not attain to it. Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them” (Ps. 139:5,6,16). How comforting it is to know that God ordained these days for me before I was even formed. He was behind me and He is before me preparing the way and preparing my heart for what only He knows is ahead. What confidence I can have because of that. I believe the Lord is going to reveal Himself to me and that I am going to see Him at work in ways I would not see if I were home. I don’t think I will ever understand why He has chosen to use me in this way because I am not at all worthy to carry His name to the nations, but for some reason He has called me, and He will take the responsibility for making me capable to do His work. It is all Him and nothing of me. I am merely the vessel that He has chosen to act through. I find it somewhat strange to think that this is my life now, and yet there’s something about it that feels so right. I have left everyone I know and love behind and have found myself thrown into a world that I really know nothing of. I am in a place of discovery…..discovering new countries, new people, new foods, new languages, new ways of thinking…..I am discovering and will continue to discover more of who God is and more of who I am and the desires that He has for me. He is a God of unceasing wonders!
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Wow! Those are some great thoughts! It's great to know the confidence that comes from being where God wants us, even though we don't know what the next step of the journey holds. We DO know that when we respond to His call with an attitude of humble obedience (as you've expressed)that we have the promise of His presence and His power on the journey. I think of Abraham's experience in Genesis 12 when God said, "Go forth from you country, and from your relatives, and from your father's house, to the land which I will show you; and I will make you a great nation, and I will bless you,and make your name great; AND SO YOU WILL BE A BLESSING."
ReplyDeleteBecause you have listened and are obeying with the attitude you've expressed above, you are going to both know God's blessing, and be a blessing to others!
"How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news of good things..."
Love you - Dad
AJ,
ReplyDeleteYou expressed so beautifully what dad and i have known for quite some time. You were created to do this. God Himself has chosen you to go. And go you must. It made me think of the thought in "The Calvary Road" which reads "The only life that pleases God and that can be victorious is His life-never our life, no matter how hard we try." It is Him at work in you that will be victorious. It is your willingness to be empty and be filled by Him that will take you places where He has deemed you go, and it is His fruit that you will bear. So go, grow, reproduce and flourish,knowing you have our full support and all our love. miss you,mom